Why Doesn’t Anyone Love Me?
ByI don’t know, but I just feel so unloved. All my life, since kindergarden, people have been mean and picked on me, and I have not clue why. I’m always nice to other people, I try my best to make everyone around me happy, I give them money, share my lunch, draw pictures of them if they want me to, help people with homework, and more, but everyones still pretty mean to me. I have very few friends, and they’re almost all guys, and pretty insensitive. Also, they’re almost all guys, so it’s hard for them to really get how I feel. And, even if they know something bugs me, they continue to do it anyway, one of them made me cry because he was being so mean. But aside from all this, some other things have been bugging me…
See, a few months ago my best friend started to ignore me more, and now, she won’t even spend time with me, unless she’s trying to manipulate me to watch her little brother so she can have alone time with her boyfriend. Whenever we make plans she breaks them. Even worse, when I’m really proud of something, she looks as deep into as she can to point out problems with it, or she’ll try to make me feel bad for any reason she can, but she’s done that all our lives.
Another thing, my whole life I looked to her mother as another parent to me for when my mom doesn’t understand, and she’s always treated me like one of her own… but one day, I was with my friends and we were on our way to go buy some ice cream and her son saw us, and asked if he could come, we didn’t have enough money to get one for him, and after we were going to talk about “big kid” stuff, after we dropped off my friends little siblings at their house, which we’d pass on the way. I told him he couldn’t come, and he started crying, and I felt bad but we just couldn’t take him. So to get back at me, his mom told my best friend and her boyfriend not to let me come wen they took him to see How to Train Your Dragon, which they all knew I was really excited to see. And it really hurt me, because I always babysit their son for free and all, but that one time I couldn’t take him made them do something like that… maybe I really did deserve it…
And the other night, I told my mom I don’t really like Russel Crowe, so she told me when I’m old enough I have to move out, and she already knew how upset I had been. And my dad, well he really hasn’t done crap for me in my life ever, for the past 2 years he’s neglected to even send me a card for my birthday or Christmas, and when he comes up to state to visit he spends about an hour with me in the entire week he’s here. And if he decides to come up for my birthday, he and my mom always fight.
And I finally asked someone considered a friend for help, and they said no one likes me because I have short hair, and that it was ugly and no guy would ever date someone with hair like mine. Which did bring me to the thought that I’m not really pretty or anything, but I’m definitely not ugly, I’ve seen people with worse looks than i that everyone they know loves, so it can’t be that, could it?
Oh, I’m sorry for wasting so much time if you read all of this, but thank you!
Please please don’t comment saying that I have no reason to be upset, because I’ve gotten that too many times before on other websites, I’m just looking for a little help, I’d really prefer that people not be anymore mean to me than people already are. Telling me that doesn’t help in the least, it just makes me feel worse!
3 Comments
January 21st, 2011 at 6:40 pm
it sounds like you have a rough life… i know how it feels to feel unloved, but in order to be loved.. you have to love yourself. You have to put all the little doubts and insecurities behind you. you seem like a great person to me, so just hang in there and someone will learn to appreciate you for the amazing person you are.
January 21st, 2011 at 7:29 pm
Maybe you need to stop trying to be so nice.
I mean really, if people are not nice to you why would you be nice to them.
In a situation like yours other people will always see you as an easy target if your too nice.
People are a$$holes and they are selfish.
Anyone who says this is untrue is an idiot or a liar.
On a side note…I think long hair on girls is nicer but beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Try forgetting about whether people like you or not and ffs don’t let them use you so much.
Figure out what you want from your life and concentrate on that.
In the end it doesn’t matter how many people you have around you, they can never see your mind and in reality you are always going to be alone.
But if you insist on trying to kiss so much a$$ then expect to get sh!t on.
January 21st, 2011 at 7:42 pm
Hello friend. I love you and I want you to remember that.
1. Your friend’s mom was in the wrong. But YOU have a big heart. So, all you need to do is forgive her and get over it.
2. Study hard, excel in your studies, excel at working towards your career. THAT’S IMPORTANT. The rest of the stuff, is an emotional drain.
3. Be focussed. Don’t think about your parents’s fights. Focus on improving your life. If your dad is not the perfect of all dads, DON’T OUNISH YOU OWN SELF FOR IT.
4. If people are mean to you, inspite of the fact that you’re nice to them, THAT MEANS THAT THEY ARE NEGATIVE PEOPLE.
NEGATIVE PEOPLE ARE HUNGRY PEOPLE. THEY “FEAST” ON POSITIVE PEOPLE’S AURA AND POSITIVE ENERGY.
5. No friend’s mom can be your parent. Nobody can take the place of your parents. Remember that.
6. The world is full of selfish, shallow people with shallow “friendships”. Don’t be mean, manipulating or anything, but ALWAYS keep in mind when you make “friends”. And anyway, you have to focus on your career mapping and you have to be focussed on being happy, you have to be focussed on MAKING LONG TERM PLANS FOR YOURSELF.
I would like to share with you the following things I feel strongly about, they are my guiding principles in my life:’
1. CHOICES: We always have a choice. Go for the brighter, well lit road, eve though the may be difficult to navigate.
2. INNOCENCE: Whatever the world may do, however badly they may behave, don’t lose your own essential goodness and innocence.
3. BITTERNESS: However badly the people around may treat you, YOU don’t become bitter, manipulative, shrewd. Again, hang on to your own goodness.
4. POSITIVITY: The world is a wicked place, people who are nasty, who foulmouth you, people who rape, kill, bomb….we have to spread our own bit of positivity…
SAY THIS PRAYER NOW:
All the positive energies of the Universe, I pray to you to unite and please surround me with your warmth and Love. Please, magically move in my direction and make my pure , honest and earnest desire come true. Also, light up the right path so that I may not lose my way.
Similarly, please reduce the suffering of all of your children on this earth. Take away all the sadness, fill our hearts with gladness.
DON’T LET PEOPLE STEAL YOUR SMILE, DON’T LET ANYONE STEAL YOUR JOY!!!